Friday, February 6, 2009
I feel old.
And here is the reason why. I am taking care of my 4 and 1 year old granddaughters while my daughter works. She is working the 11 pm to 7 am shift and I keep them till around 2 in the afternoon 5 days a week. I wanted to be one of those Grandma's that just gets to see them and then send them home to Mommy and Daddy, but it didn't work out that way. I had three children, so I know I must have done the raising somehow, but I honestly cannot remember how I did it! Taking care of 2 little ones is not easy on this 49 year old. Now, 49 may sound young to some, but to me it just feels old. I feel stuck. I love my grandbabies, don't get me wrong, but I feel like I have no choice. I don't have my car because my daughter drives it and I feel stuck in this house with no where to go. I have no friends, except for my online ones, so I have no one to call but my Mom or my sister. Is anyone else in the same boat as I am or is it just me?
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Hope you have fun with your grandkids.
ReplyDeletehugs to you. seems to be one of those days! you will sure feel better next week!
ReplyDeleteThis doesn't always help, but some people take it different than others. My husband always tells me to count my blessings when I get discouraged. So you might try it. But I've been there to where I just needed to have my freedom. Hugs and I'm hoping you can work through this. =)
ReplyDeleteI understand - but I agree with Christina that you should focus on what you do have. I've got a house full of folks, but often feel lonely too.
ReplyDeletehang in there, Karen. You may not realize it, but your grandchildren are really going to value you and the relationship they have with you so much when they get older. Being the stable force in their lives right now might seem like a pretty thankless job, but it's so essential.
ReplyDeleteHere's a big ***HUG*** coming from me! I understand completely! You can cry and laugh on my shoulder anytime! The differenc here is that the kids are my OWN. LOL! I really do love them, but some days (or weeks) I wish they would leave me alone even for 5 minutes! Hang in there :)
ReplyDeleteKaren,
ReplyDeleteHugs to you! I understand how you feel about feeling alone. I work all day and don't have the energy due to OCD meds to go out with friends. Just getting to the gym is difficult but I push myself. My online friends have become my friends. I also have quite a few pen pals.
Feeling the way you do is okay. Do you know how long the situation will last? Can you go out when your daughter comes home with the car?
Feel free to contact me if you want to chat.
Karen, I know you feel taken advantage of, used, and just downright tired, but I can tell you from experience, that your grandkids will always remember who was there for them and what an influence you are on them. I know this because my grandmother raised my little sister and myself. My parents both worked, and my grandmother lived with us. To us, she was called "Mom". She never learned how to drive, so she was with us all day, every day. It was two weeks until her 96th birthday when her heart gave out, and she died peacefully. To this day, I still wish I could just talk to her about everyday things. She taught me so much. She's been gone for fourteen years, but I still remember all the ways she touched my life.
ReplyDeleteI wish we lived closer, since we are the same age, and we could spend some time chatting!!