OK, this is my new weight loss blog. I discovered yesterday...or rather many years ago...that I am addicted to food. This might be easier if I could live without food, but I can't. So, I woke up this morning and decided that it's time for me to lose weight. It's not the first time I've decided this, but maybe this time it will sink in and I will actually lose it. Now, get ready for this all my followers, none yet, but some will follow soon I hope, my starting weight is...um...somewhere in the vicinity of 265 pounds. I get weighed once a month at my counseling center where I get my medications, so I know this is around where it's at. I have a scale somewhere in this house but don't feel like looking for it at the moment, so I'm just going with the 265. I am 5'4" and this weight is just about to kill me. My knees hurt, my back and arms and feet hurt and I just can't take it anymore. Not to mention a friend of mine has lost a ton of weight in the past few months and if she can do it, I don't see why I can't! I always said that I would NEVER weigh 200 pounds. Well, I have surpassed that and 265 is way over the limit.
The way I am going to lose weight is this: Stop eating so damn much. I don't have any insurance, haven't had any for years, so I cannot afford a gastric bypass. I'm not sure if I would go with that if I could anyway. I can do this myself, I KNOW I can. I've done it before, although it was 20 some odd years ago, but I know I can do this. Today I had a bowl of cereal and just ate some jello with fruit in it. I can make a safe bet and say I'm not having a pan of brownies with ice cream for lunch today. (Yes, I HAVE done that!) I do plan to join the local YMCA again and try and get a trainer who isn't an idiot that tells me "Good luck with that" when I tell her how much I want to lose. That's what happened when I joined a couple of years ago and let me tell you, that's seriously depressing. I never went back after that. But I hear they have different trainers there and I intend to find one that won't look down and me and give me support. This is the start of a new thin and healthy life...and blog! I'll post more tomorrow!